Sometimes you aren’t supposed to have all the answers.
Your faith is being stretched for a reason.
You are being presented with a question: should I trust God?
Why should I trust God when it looks like this?
Just deciding to trust without any coherent reason for doing so is when you learn to break the cycle of doubt.
Instead of attempting to answer a question that cannot be answered: you learn to trust. Full trust alleviates one aspect of your suffering. You skip the part where you wrestle with confusion by denying it before it can overtake you.
Some seasons were designed to teach you this lesson.